I was dismayed to hear from greygirlbeast that Livejournal is "on life support" because of newer, shinier social networking sites like Facebook and Twitter. I'm no longer on Facebook, but I've been having way too much fun on Twitter (as @docbrite, if you didn't get the memo). Obviously I need to get my ass back here more frequently. So here, for old times' sake, is a stupid LJ survey. It's called "The Self-Esteem Meme," and I picked it because the phrase "self-esteem" never fails to amuse me.



Bold statements that are true. Italicize statements that are partly true. Give yourself 1 point for each bolded statement and half a point for each italicized one.

Appearance
I hate the way I look.
I cannot look in the mirror without thinking that I am ugly.
I think I am the ugliest of all my friends.
I don't think the opposite sex will ever be attracted to me.
If I had the money, I would get plastic surgery.
I would change at least 5 things about myself.
My friends/partner/family constantly tell me I'm beautiful, but I don't believe them.
I will not leave the house without make-up on.
Total: 1

Weight
I hate my body.
I wish I was thinner.
I'd rather be stick thin than a little chubby.
I am jealous of all the models I see in magazines.
I either have or do make myself throw up regularly.
I starve myself on a regular basis.
I track how many calories I eat, and get mad at myself when I go over the limit.
I have an eating disorder or am developing one.
Total: .5

Abilities
I am not good at anything.
I have no special talents or skills.
I don't apply for jobs because I know I will never get hired.
I suck(ed) at school and don't (didn't) bother trying.
I think I'm stupid.
My friends are all good at something, but I'm not.
I'd rather die than perform anything in front of a crowd.
I can't name anything good about myself.
I don't believe in myself.
Total: 1.5

Feelings
I am currently depressed.
I feel lonely and/or sad all the time.
I feel like nobody cares or understands me.
My crush doesn't even notice me.*
I don't know why I am living.**
I think about suicide seriously.
I get embarrassed easily.
I haven't been happy in long time.
Total: 2.5

Habits
I often lie in bed for hours, not being able to sleep.
I worry about things constantly.
I drink/do drugs to make myself feel better about my life.***
I often hurt myself purposely.
I cry 4 or more times a week.
I can relate to every sad song out there.
I always have to do something to get my mind off things.
Total: 3

Total: 8.5

OVERALL TOTAL:
0 - 10: Your self esteem is great!
11 - 20: Your self esteem is okay.
21 - 30: Your self esteem could use some work.
31 - 40: Your self esteem is really low. Seek help from family/friends if you feel down all the time.

*My husband/true love notices me plenty, but my crush, Bobby Hebert, doesn't even know I am alive. Cry, cry.

**Does anyone?

***More to make my body feel better, but the side effects don't hurt either.



Well, that eases my mind considerably, even if I did have my first oh-my-God-I'm-leaving-my-home-and-my-cats-and-my-city-and-going-5000-miles-away-soon panic attack today.