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Strange Memories

Strange memories on this nervous night in Las Vegas. Five years later? Six? It seems like a lifetime, or at least a Main Era -- the kind of peak that never comes again. San Francisco in the middle sixties was a very special time and place to be a part of. Maybe it meant something. Maybe not, in the long run ... but no explanation, no mix of words or music or memories can touch that sense of knowing that you were there and alive in that corner of time and the world. - Hunter S. Thompson

This quote from Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas runs over and over through my head tonight, a near-perfect expression of being homesick for a place or a time or both. For me, it's always Amsterdam; I dream many times a week of being there, and try to imagine a scenario that would ever allow me to return, but it's hard to do that when even the purchase of a new pair of sandals from Wal-Mart wreaks enough budgetary havoc to give me pause. In some ways, my life was awful four or five years ago compared to now, because there was no love in it. In some other ways, though, I wish I'd appreciated how good I had it back then.

Strangely, my dream-Amsterdam contains several places that, though they do not exist in the actual city, remain consistent from dream to dream: an amusement park; an arcade full of tiny, authentic Asian restaurants; a wooden museum surrounded by lush tropical foliage. I also spend a lot of dream-time in the coffeeshops, though, and all of those are real.


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Jul. 10th, 2014 09:45 am (UTC)
Do a novel about vampires feeding on derelict stoner backpackers in the coffee shops.
Jul. 10th, 2014 09:57 am (UTC)
I just about would, if I could get an advance for it that would let me make the trip.
Jul. 10th, 2014 09:59 am (UTC)
Can you try for one? You have a decent fan base, vampires are popular and all of Europe hates stoner backpackers and would probably love to read about them getting eaten.
Jul. 10th, 2014 01:23 pm (UTC)
I would pay good money for that.
Jul. 10th, 2014 02:24 pm (UTC)
Not only would buy that, all of my friends who are into vampires would by that. Ask your Uncle Harlan if it's a good idea.
Jul. 11th, 2014 09:48 am (UTC)
Re: Heh...
Tons of people would buy it.
Jul. 11th, 2014 09:40 am (UTC)
I was thinking perhaps an alternate Amsterdam with Billy's locations. Which could still definitely contain stoned-backpacker-eating vampires.
Jul. 10th, 2014 09:49 am (UTC)
I don't know whether this is pertinent, but many years ago I moved to London, and for the first few weeks, I had dreams where it turned out that I wasn't in London yet and was having difficulty getting there for some reason. After a while, I started having dreams of my home town and a friend, not even a close one, who lived here. The "home" of my dreams wasn't like my real home. Just as now, the London of my dreams isn't the real London. (Having lived there so long - more than four years - I have a really rather cool imaginary London in my dreams now, based on the real thing but like a pop-up book rendering and much more cool frankly.)

I periodically dream that I am between towns again - in a dream life, I live between the two cities, not by choice, often startled to realise that I haven't been home/have forgotten to return to London.

I think that these dreams are dreams to do with unfinished business and untaken roads, our subconsciouses sorting out where we are, where we were, and where we want to be.
Jul. 10th, 2014 09:59 am (UTC)
Very likely. On a superficial level, for example, I'm pretty sure the weird wooden museum structure represents Amsterdam's Troppenmuseum, which I've always meant to visit but keep missing.
Jul. 10th, 2014 09:57 am (UTC)
What would you do differently then, if you had the option?
Jul. 10th, 2014 09:58 am (UTC)
Re: Thoughts
Not spend so much money on useless crap, mostly.
Jul. 10th, 2014 02:22 pm (UTC)
Re: Thoughts
There's useless, and then there's Useless.
Jul. 10th, 2014 06:23 pm (UTC)
I really have to get my hands on more HST. I've read his book on the Hells Angels to shreds but that's the only writing from him I've read.
Jul. 11th, 2014 02:20 am (UTC)
I've been dreaming about the same weird city for maybe a decade now. At some point I realized it was Richmond, Va, although I've never been there. (It bears no resemblance since the real Richmond does not have flooded railroad tracks or an abandoned amusement park bordered by slightly-animated and very affectionate trees.)
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